My Angel

On Friday, May 9th, 2008; my girlfriend, Sophie Rosslyn, lost her life to a drunk driver. Sophie was my sun and my stars. She was the light of my life and I will never, ever stop loving her. Everyone who was lucky enough to know Sophie can attest to the fact that she was one of the most compassionate, open-minded, accepting, and beautiful people on earth. Sophie was my angel and I believe that she still is in an even more literal sense.
We shared so much together; the good times and the bad. She stuck with me through so much and my love for her only grew as time flew by. My love for her will never stop growing. We laughed, we cried, we argued, we kissed, we hugged, and so much more during our relationship that was cut so terribly short by death. Some of you knew Sophie personally and are devastated by her death just like I am. Others did not have the opportunity to know her in person, but I often spoke of her and you came to know her through me.
I am unsure how I will live without my baby. As I said, she was everything to me. I can't imagine life without her gorgeous smile. I already miss the sound of her voice and her wonderful laughter. I miss her amazing eyes and her seemingly flawless face. Everything about Sophie was perfect in my eyes. I worshipped the ground she walked on.
Sophie was much more than just my girlfriend; she was my sweetheart, my "sister", my confidante, and my rescuer, but most of all...she was my best friend. I wish I could hold her one more time, but I can't. These past few days have been spent praying to God to let me see her again. I just want to see her one more time and tell her that I love her more than life itself.

We had so many good times together. I remember when she would stay at my house we would wake up in the middle of the night and eat chocolate ice cream in the kitchen until we got sleepy again. She laughed at most, if not all, of my jokes...no matter how bad they were. I bought her roses for Valentine's Day and she got me concert tickets. One time, when her family was having a garage sale, we didn't want our gay pride flag to get sold so we wrapped ourselves in it and started kissing.
I remember we would go skateboarding together just about every day and try to outdo each other in skate tricks. I had the privilege of playing in the same band with her. I was lead guitar and she was backup. We always had fun performing for people. Even though we'd been dating for over a year, I still tried to impress her. I did all kinds of crazy things to get her to look at me. I wanted her to be happy she was my girlfriend, I hope she was. Even though we argued sometimes, we never went to bed without saying sorry. Whether it be in person, over the phone, or on AIM. We always made up before saying goodbye.
Sophie was my angel and I will never forget her. I don't know how I'll live without her, but I pray to God that I will.

Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one
For me

Sophie's death has left a gigantic hole in my heart that will never be filled. <3

Say you'll share with me one love
One lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
Share each day with me
Each night
Each morning

You alone can make my song take flight
It's over now
The music of the night

Goodbye, my angel...you were the only one for me.

It's A Girl!

A girl hamster, that is.
I bought me a sweet little chocolate-colored Syrian hamster (aka Teddy Bear hamster) yesterday. She's very gentle and inquisitive. She likes to eat out of my hand and she also likes it when I rub her tiny tummy.
There's one problem, though...I have not a clue what I should name her. =[ So, based on her sweet-natured, curious little personality, I came up with three names that I like. Molli, Lily, or Mocha. Here's where everyone who reads my blog gets to help; I'm going to put up a poll here on my blog listing the three names I'm considering. I'll leave the poll open for a week and once that week is over, whichever name has the most votes will be the winner.
Vote as many times as you wish. Once the official name for my little ham has been decided, I'll post a pic of her.

May the best name win!

PS I already consulted with my hamster and she trusts you. =D

My Friends...My Terrifying, Obnoxious, Wonderfully Annoying Friends

I have 4 close friends including my girlfriend, Sophie. The other three are boys; Benny, Derek, and Caleb. Benny is gay, Derek is gay, and Caleb is pansexual. We are an interesting little fivesome (that's not even a word). We have so many weird little inside jokes that we have, in fact, forgotten many of them.
I like the things my friends come up with...so here is a collection of quotes from those nearest and dearest to my heart...my four best friends.

Sophie - The Stubborn Girlfriend

To me: "You are a bad dancer and a good kisser. That is why I love you."

To her cat: "Why must you make me sneeze?! Dammit!!!"

To Benny: "Shut up and eat your f*cking sandwich."

To me: "If we weren't in the middle of Wal Mart...I do believe I'd make love to you right now."


Benny - The "Emotional" Guy

To me: "I like you and all, but good God, you need to update your wardrobe!"

To his Science teacher: "Wrong."

To anyone who thinks they're better than him: "B*tch, please."


Derek - The Troublemaker

To Sophie, Benny, Caleb, and me: "Wouldn't it be great if we could start a power ballad in the middle of a Hollister store?"

His greatest fear: "I have a pathological fear of Ralph Lauren. Not the clothes, but the man himself."

His 'Idol': "I want to dip Danny Noriega in chocolate!"

To Emma: "You deserve a whole hillside of heavenly-scented marigolds."


Caleb - The Voice of Reason

To Sophie, Benny, Derek, and me: "Sit down and shut the f*ck up."

To Benny: "Stop hitting on me."

His 'glory': "I stood on top of that cabbage and spiked that f*cking carrot straight into the ground!"

To me: "Take a chill pill."

My friends are awesome and I'd do ANYTHING for them. So guys, if you're reading this...I LOVE YOU!! <3